Wednesday, October 31, 2007
Im kinda exhausted, scanning n goin tru all d articles n materials, im on my way in getting my part of recruitment n resourcing assignment to be done..
Many things can reli happen in a day, mayb within a minute or even a second..
even tho a word, it may destroy everything..im posting this to u, if u r reading,u shud know im refering to u..
Im nt trying to mengheboh-hebohkan or buat hal here, i juz wan to clarify things dat u might stil blur or mayb uncertain wit..coz u r provoking me n making me truly emo..first of all, u shud clearly knw dat we r goin on juz as fren, told u b4, not beyond that..but u claimed that im nt treating u as fren as i din msg u until u msg me..hey dude, there r hundred names in my contact, so do i nid to msg each of everyone everyday to prove or show dat our frenship do reli exist.?
Las nite, i didnt reply 2 of ur msgs, n u sent me another 1 by asking me whether im trying to be "COCKY"..dats reli rude whereby i cant accept this adjective, so i ignore ur msgs n calls after that..when i din reply ur msg, it shud giv u an idea that im bz, ive told u b4..but u juz hardly can accept it n started wit ur bad perception n thinking where im avoiding n ignoring u..wat do u expect from me actually..?? u r asking me wat am i doin everyday..u wan me to explain every single thing y n y im doin this n that..?? u wan me to tell u i was actually rushin for ass in d nex room n my phone was charging in d other room.? im no longer obligated to tell everything, dats too much u knw..im so tired to explain y i nid my fon bak, y im nt free, wer i went, wat im doin there n all..
We hardly can communicate well, hardly click to each other, ur words reli hurt me everytime..dats y as time goes by, i dun reli care anymore, watever, as i alwiz say..i alwiz hav d intention to be ur fren after we broke up, but u r pushing me away from days to days, n as u seen d pohyee today is mean to u..u r the one who brought me to tis step whereby we somehow r stranger o enemy nw..
U sent me plenty of msgs, n i reli hate that u blame me for nvr try out anything to save or to make our relationship better..y u r nt d one who takes initiative to change n wat hav u contributed to our relationship..?? ive told u b4, when i was wit u, im more like ur bf rather than gf..i paid for ur food when u r freaking broke, basically 80% of d time when we were 2gther..i lent u a sum of money to cleared al ur summons n bills, i borrowed u my old fon, i bought f&b, n even d thost'em bread u love most where i nvr treat myself b4..i made a smiley card, n a love diary btw us..im doin al this for bullshit izit..?? when u r nt in a good mood for no reason, u can juz come n meet me witout a word,not even a hie o bye..haha, then u expect me to talk nicely n persuade u to change,im d one who supposed to emo n u r the one who shud tell me dat u r willing 2change n u'll change..u shud knw d major prob that contributed to our ending today is ur financial position cant even sustain yourself for ur daily life, u cant even afford for urself..n i think u r nt ready at all for a girl in ur life.i guess u shud knw al these very well..u alwiz afraid n think dat others hav d advantage of being chinese, race isnt a matter, but u urself are d prob, ur attitude..!!
i dun reli wana go further for this topic anymore..n i dun reli knw that whether i can still treat u as fren..mayb we shud stop approaching each other for a period of time..dats all i can say..
Many things can reli happen in a day, mayb within a minute or even a second..
even tho a word, it may destroy everything..im posting this to u, if u r reading,u shud know im refering to u..
Im nt trying to mengheboh-hebohkan or buat hal here, i juz wan to clarify things dat u might stil blur or mayb uncertain wit..coz u r provoking me n making me truly emo..first of all, u shud clearly knw dat we r goin on juz as fren, told u b4, not beyond that..but u claimed that im nt treating u as fren as i din msg u until u msg me..hey dude, there r hundred names in my contact, so do i nid to msg each of everyone everyday to prove or show dat our frenship do reli exist.?
Las nite, i didnt reply 2 of ur msgs, n u sent me another 1 by asking me whether im trying to be "COCKY"..dats reli rude whereby i cant accept this adjective, so i ignore ur msgs n calls after that..when i din reply ur msg, it shud giv u an idea that im bz, ive told u b4..but u juz hardly can accept it n started wit ur bad perception n thinking where im avoiding n ignoring u..wat do u expect from me actually..?? u r asking me wat am i doin everyday..u wan me to explain every single thing y n y im doin this n that..?? u wan me to tell u i was actually rushin for ass in d nex room n my phone was charging in d other room.? im no longer obligated to tell everything, dats too much u knw..im so tired to explain y i nid my fon bak, y im nt free, wer i went, wat im doin there n all..
We hardly can communicate well, hardly click to each other, ur words reli hurt me everytime..dats y as time goes by, i dun reli care anymore, watever, as i alwiz say..i alwiz hav d intention to be ur fren after we broke up, but u r pushing me away from days to days, n as u seen d pohyee today is mean to u..u r the one who brought me to tis step whereby we somehow r stranger o enemy nw..
U sent me plenty of msgs, n i reli hate that u blame me for nvr try out anything to save or to make our relationship better..y u r nt d one who takes initiative to change n wat hav u contributed to our relationship..?? ive told u b4, when i was wit u, im more like ur bf rather than gf..i paid for ur food when u r freaking broke, basically 80% of d time when we were 2gther..i lent u a sum of money to cleared al ur summons n bills, i borrowed u my old fon, i bought f&b, n even d thost'em bread u love most where i nvr treat myself b4..i made a smiley card, n a love diary btw us..im doin al this for bullshit izit..?? when u r nt in a good mood for no reason, u can juz come n meet me witout a word,not even a hie o bye..haha, then u expect me to talk nicely n persuade u to change,im d one who supposed to emo n u r the one who shud tell me dat u r willing 2change n u'll change..u shud knw d major prob that contributed to our ending today is ur financial position cant even sustain yourself for ur daily life, u cant even afford for urself..n i think u r nt ready at all for a girl in ur life.i guess u shud knw al these very well..u alwiz afraid n think dat others hav d advantage of being chinese, race isnt a matter, but u urself are d prob, ur attitude..!!
i dun reli wana go further for this topic anymore..n i dun reli knw that whether i can still treat u as fren..mayb we shud stop approaching each other for a period of time..dats all i can say..
Monday, October 22, 2007
Results released..
Emo Emo Emo..
Lets see my dumb result that ive obtained for Y2S1..
Organizational Behavior -- A
Business Finance -- B+
Managing Information System -- B+
Marketing -- B+
English for Management -- B-
Business Finance -- B+
Managing Information System -- B+
Marketing -- B+
English for Management -- B-
A great disappointment hits me..feeling kinda upset over the hardworks n efforts that ive contributed..B+ is in between 70m-74m, it seems to be like i cant go a lil bit further to achieve A..i knw d results above are nt as bad as u guys think bt Ive really obtained plenty of Bs in my life..when I was in secondary school, there were 11 compulsory subjects for SPM, n surprisingly, I obtained 3A’s 7Bs n 1C..hahaha!! isn’t SEVEN Bs sound too muc..B is like blocking my way to go extra miles..*sigh..im nt comparing to others but myself, result has dropped drastically compared to d previous sem..altho my parents nvr stress me in studies but still I feel embarrass to inform them, they expect more than I do, so im hiding them this time, shhhh..!!
it somehow pulls down my motivation to move on..but still, I’ll never give up, gona fight til the end n f*** Bs away of my life..
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
im actually quite tired today, but im damn desperate to update my blog..
1st day of a brand new semester, but it's so muc different from d other sems..im like flying in d air, coz the day is truly happening..may n munyee are driving me crazy today wit their stories n experiences..haha..i cant stop cock-ing once i saw them in uni, really like didnt meet for 3 years altho its juz 3weeks break..
1st day of a brand new semester, but it's so muc different from d other sems..im like flying in d air, coz the day is truly happening..may n munyee are driving me crazy today wit their stories n experiences..haha..i cant stop cock-ing once i saw them in uni, really like didnt meet for 3 years altho its juz 3weeks break..
im pleased not as simply as juz im happy,
but coz they're happy,
n i feel glad for them as well..
i can sense watever is in thier minds n heart,
this is unbelievable,
but its amazing..!!
i love them for how they are,
sharing without boundary,
n considerate to the farthest point,
i appreciate,
their sincerity of being my buddy..
--specially dedicated to may n munyee--
but coz they're happy,
n i feel glad for them as well..
i can sense watever is in thier minds n heart,
this is unbelievable,
but its amazing..!!
i love them for how they are,
sharing without boundary,
n considerate to the farthest point,
i appreciate,
their sincerity of being my buddy..
--specially dedicated to may n munyee--
Saturday, October 13, 2007
5th --- 7th oct, 2007
Past present future, fellowship camp..
the pic isn't blur, but d view is reli wonderful, like heaven.
dats d reason y i love beach so so much..sunset..
cant live witout her..
love munyee..my twin sister..!!
..jean, aaron n kk..posing pulak in jungle..
arveen, rockzzz!!
..Zouk..konon-nyerr..!!
yuhoo~~flag drew by me won..
myee,aaron,xinyin, n me..
3rd oct, 2007Never thought of this day will approach me, thought d first time was d last time, but im wrong..it somehow proved that my bro is reli ill..sickness attacked him again, for d second time..
noon, he was taking a nap while i was doin some history notes for him, once he woke up, he headed to d wash room..but then we heard some noise from d toilet.."bomp! bomp! bomp!" at first we tot he was locked inside n he needs help, but its not..mom called me then..
the bomp noise never ends, mom n me were shouting outside, asking him to open d door right nw..he didnt reply, but we heard his voice..sounds like he's overly high settling himself inside..we tried to bang d door but failed, mom asked me to take leather n peek him from d window up there..wth. this time i witness his condition wit my own eyes, he was lying on d floor, whole body was shaking, n his leg keep knocking d door n caused d bomp noise..this time round, i reli believe dat he's attacked by epilepsy again..mom called neighbor n seek help from sum1..he was carried out then, but he knocked his head again, exactly d same spot where he knocked las time..n it happened in d toilet again..isnt coincidental.??
bro tears, he's upset..i knw he feels embarass wit suc sickness..we paid a visit to d clinic again..doc recommended dad to bring him for a brain check up in d hospital, n we're adviced to take good care of him, coz suc sickness may attack anytime..doz taught him hw to protect himself, how to faint nicely, recovery position n all..
doc added dat medicine can hardly cure suc illness, it can oni helps to control d disease n minimizes d chances of being attacked..mom is wondering whether he kena dirty stuff, coz epilepsy is caused by heredity factor, but both dad n mom dont hav any record for such illness..
any doubt will be revealed after the medical check up..hope he'll be all rite..
love shien
