3 weeks break has finally comes to an end, its time to tune back into study mode as im entering year 3 now, tough phase gna takes place where thesis, assignments, presentations, n mid terms gna fill up my schedule when new sem reopens..

I would say tis break has been the most wonderful among all for me, where I do reli enjoyed to the max..this fun filled time are leaving me a great remembrance for the rest of my life..thx to my dearie for spending whole loads of time wit me during tis holi especially the trip..he walks into my life n lighten up my days..however, he’s claiming that he is yet the best for me, apologizing trillion times for failing to bring me a step forward..im quite upset that I failed to convince him wit my words n distress that I cant make him feel better..i failed to answer him when he asked me to what extent a good guy can be, how good is him now, n where else he can improve himself..there are thousand of emotions filling my hearts yet there are hardly describe by words, perhaps a smile represents everything..its somehow complicated for the journey we hav went tru along the way, oni both of us knw well..Ive made up my mind to give him all my time, coz I reli find myself walking in a circle along tis, turning bak to the starting point witout an ending, n now im hoping that my ending will be me n him..im jz gna go with the flow cz I realize that there is ntg muc to worry about, if he’s mine, he’ll mine..Dear, allow me to stay beside u coz having u wit me is my greatest pleasure n plz accept my companionship as im having strong feelings toward you..

Ive made him some konyaku jelly n a smiley card to erase his gloomy feelings n we met up last nite for a drink..he amazed me by treating me an ice cream which he’s strongly prohibiting me to consume along tis due to my heavy discharge..i wonder what brought him to this step, but I juz appreciate that..thanks a lot dear..

There is a poem attached in the card which i reli adore so so much, its so meaningful where i wish one day we can find our true love from each other's company.

Walk with me, the path of life,
to explore every bend of the road;
Enjoy with me the beauty of life,
along its wonderful way.

Find comfort with me, in each other's arms,
when grief crosses our path;
Find strength with me, in each other's strength,
when despair lies in wait.

Laugh with me, a single true laugh,
to enlighten another's distress;
Cry with me, a single true tear,
to understand true happiness.

Cherish with me, the wonders of life,
as they need to be preserved;
Rejoice with me, in the mysteries,
of what is yet to be.

Find peace with me, in each other's souls,
when the world has gone insane;
Find love with me, in each other's hearts,
until this life has been fulfilled.

And when he path comes to an end,
i hope we can say from within;
We've known the beauty of true love,
our love came from within.

Supposingly,today, im stil enjoying the final day of my break, but mom ruined everything..bro has put us (siblings) n mom into a great war--perang dingin..she ignored to talk to any1 of us n she’s showing her emo face the whole day..the story goes like tis..i came bak at 2 plus last nite n dearie came in a while n we had a short conversation, then sis came bak around 3am wit a “vroom vroom” car which awaked mom in the middle of the nite..she came out n surprisingly saw my bro is stil in front of the comp chatting wit his gf..aih..he cant stay up late n the radiation from the comp gna affects his brains in some ways and then epilepsy wil attack him again..bro is stil very unclear wit the consequences of his illness n im so freaking exhausted in taking care of him..wat happens today is mom took out one of the cable which connects the CPU to the monitor..i would say that there are many ways in controlling bro from using the comp but she has made the silly-est decisions to act tis way coz any1 of us including daddy are not able to use to comp..wth is tis, how can one stands a day witout a comp n my new sem gna starts by 2mr..well, im uploading al tis wit sis's laptop..

My hse is extremely dull today, like a dead scene..not a word during our lunch n dinner in a circle, situation is terribly formal n strict like every1 is having tis perception where no talking is allowed during meals..flies dun even wna join us..mom is in a tremendous anger I knw n tis time Ive no idea at all to solve tis dispute..im thankful that im goin bak to uni n I dun nid to stay at home anymore as tis is killing me softly..tis coming sat wil be her 51^st bday, im so totally not in the mood of making her a bday card til she initiates a conversation wit me..lets wait..

The day b4 yesterday was a siblings day, 3 of us went out for shopping as bro is looking for a sling bag..we had sushi king as our dinner..gosh, im a sushi lover..mom gave us 50 bucks for dinner when me n bro wayang in front of her telling her we are so desperate over sushi yet we couldnt afford it..well, thats all b4 the war..

the end for a long long post.byes.

I guess im too lazy to get my blog updated.
Brains are idle for words;
n fingers are too weighty to type.

Well, days aren’t very happening til I meet up all my best frens during this holi.
To be perfectly honest, im somehow lacking of sincerity to giv a contact to my old frens during holi, i'll juz linger at home 24/7 til another new sem starts..most of the time, i’ll be hanging out wit frens only if they initiate a date..i hope im no longer a dreadful fren for everyone, i call up frens who didn’t talk n meet up for ages, sharing and exchanging stories or experiences; catching up each other’s life..how wonderful is that, if I could sustain tis along our friendship til forever..
Frens, i’ll try my very best.

Yesterday was another girl’s day out wer guys are not allowed to follow..wit oni 2 weeks break, the stories of life that are residing in our hearts have reached the max level which gna explode soon if there aren’t to share with each other..the day was hyper wit their companionship--may n munyee.

Lunch in Delifrance.

Out of a sudden, I received a msg from rachel, she was abit pissed off coz I failed to keep my words as I’ll look for her during my holi..im so sorry..eventually, we hav our nite together wit easther in a very nice place in cheras.. the decoration attracts my attention and the atmosphere amazed me..each table is close up wit a half transparent curtain, variety of seats for u to select, either on the floor, sofa, swing or others..the place is delightful wit the soft lighting..had loads of fun there wit hsuyi n easther..

This is a good piece of thought.
Read it carefully & relate it to your life.

The law of a seed.
Take a look at an apple tree,
There might be 500 apples on the tree and each apple has 10 seeds. That’s a lot of seeds there.

We might ask, “why would you need so many seeds to grow just a few more apples.?
“Not all seeds grow. In life, most seeds never grow.”

So if you really want to make something happen, you better try more than once.
You’ll attend 20 interviews to get a job.
You’ll talk to 50 ppl to sell 1 house, 1 car or an insurance policy.
And you might meet a hundred acquaintances just to find 1 special friend.

When things are beyond your control,
You must not decide how you think the world SHOULD be,
You must not make rules for how everyone should behave

Then when the world doesn’t obey your rules, you get angry,
That’s what miserable ppl do!

Expectations may sound reasonable, but often these things won’t happen!
So we end up in great frustration and disappointed.

To become happier, we either need to
(a) Change the world
(b) Change our thinking
Obviously, its much easier to change our thinking

It is not the problem that is the issue, but rather it is your way and attitude attending to the problem that is the problem.

It is not what happens to you that determine your happiness.
Its how you think about what happens to you.

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Plenty of values and philosophies may sound rational for every1 to accept, but when it comes to apply to our life, it seems to be extremely tough..perhaps we need time to absorb this to our life..

pohyee with dearie's spec, look like a naughty girl.lol.Another hectic sem has finally comes to an end n im having a 3weeks break now; a long await cum romantic trip has also ended, I think its time for me to take a break, to breath n rest in peace coz im finally escape from tiring days..

Well, I juz came bak from a vacation wit dear..pangkor isn’t a very nice place but when u go with some1 special, it turns out truly different..tis time I hav a dissimilar feeling which is so unlikely the previous trip with my parents and friends..tis time I experience a burning sensation in my heart^^wink..

It’s a tiring yet astonishing journey, from my hse > may’s hse > to ipoh by car > next to lumut by bus > then to pangkor island by ferry > and lastly to pangkor bay view resort with pink cab..we had plenty of seafood, dearie is greedy to order loads of dishes..what's more, we rented a motorbike to travel around, with rm5 fuel we explored the whole island, haha..i guess dear is now very familiar with the route there..we went to batu bersurat, one historical place which I hardly can rmb the name, n I think the nicest place there is the temple known as “Fu Ling Gong” with a mini ZOO at the side which is reli so mini, with only 2 animals..swt..in the evening, we went to the beach for a walk, playing around with the waves and tiny sand, cam whoring along the beach, waiting for the sun to set, that moment was reli sweet & fantastic..in the nite, we went out again to gaze at the stars, there are plenty of little stars hanging and twinkling in the sky which make the nite more romantic and lovable, im truly overwhelmed in joy.

I do admit that there was a slight dispute in btw, which make me do not knw how to position myself..the appearance of that girl do bother me in a way, her existence reli make me anxious and somehow pull down my confidence toward dear..i hope I can get a hell way out very soon..

Dear, nothing is impossible, anything can happen, even tho u said u knw very well wer u’re pursuing n who u like, n even that girl is in a relationship now or she’s 4 to 5 years elder than us, there is still a possibility..i wouldn’t wan to be so sensitive and childish asking u to delete al the msgs in ur fon, but if u think that aren’t important and it harms our relationship, u will automatically delete it without me asking to..i’ll be as considerate as I can, but there is a limit as a close fren, especially when ur fren is opposite gender..but if that’s ur way of doin, I’ll try to accept..if in the end it turns out that u nid to choose and decide 1 btw us, then i'll be speechless, I’ll be truly depress coz we’ve went tru a reli long journey to reach and achieve the relationship we are currently having now.. im in high spirits when I get to know that OUR DAY is so close to me, another year to go, Im desperately to own u forever..i wouldn’t wan to keep ur words that nite as a promise coz I didn’t wan u to be wit me in the future juz for the promise u have made a year ago, also I didn’t wan u to be wit me juz for a responsibility..

Dear, plz bring me into ur life as u reli love me and u nid me..

Well, lets put an end to tis topic, hope I can manage tis very well..at the same time, I’ll try to be as good as I can to dear so that no girls can beat me down..lol..

Haha..thx for being wit me during the hardest time of my life when I nid u the most..we get up n snooze at the same time, we joke, we play, n we laugh; we study n reading the same lines, same chapter, n every single thing that we are doin throughout this exam period are exactly the same..with her support n companionship, I guess I can do much more better than I alone..no1 out there wil know how we support n help each other n bear everything out together..the relationship that ties btw me n her is taller than kl tower, longer than London bridge*wink..the way i describe is abit lame i knw..lol..but i would say she’s the best gift ever from god to me wer I’ll treasure it for the rest of my life.

If she wasn’t the one, I think I wouldn’t hav the chance to enjoy a wonderful dinner wit dear..ive been wanting to meet him for so many times but I juz don’t hav the guts to make the first move.. I realized that ive been missing him so badly until I get to meet him juz now..he’s depress over his grandpa lately, n hopefully I do cheer him up in some ways..we went for a dinner n a sudden plan to klcc park for a night walk..

The moment when I meet him, all the gloomy feelings tend to disappear itself, n the oni expression im able to put on my face is juz a sweet smile..yes, the days b4 I might be tearing over plenty of matters, but when we meet up I couldn’t share any of my sorrow stuff coz im so indulge in the joy n i juz wish to maintain the utmost ecstasy when Im wit him..

One more paper to go. But too bad Ive no idea at all regarding that subject, how terrible is that.
Shall start soon.
All the best to dear n me.
Lots of LOVE