Thursday, November 27, 2008
Im completely exhausted, with so much of things to be done..
Apparently im working on my final year project, and soon final exam is going to take place..Additionally, mom isn’t free for house work as she’s involving herself in charity work, and im the one who’s replacing her..
Home sweet home,
My home isn’t sweet anymore,
No peace,
Dad and mom are like cat n dog.
Final year project is torturing me,
Teachers aren’t helpful, aren’t friendly, aren’t kind,
Things are getting tougher,
With workload plus high stress level.
No peace,
Dad and mom are like cat n dog.
Final year project is torturing me,
Teachers aren’t helpful, aren’t friendly, aren’t kind,
Things are getting tougher,
With workload plus high stress level.
Plenty of matters have contributed to my stress level,
And im emotionally exhausted,
Feel so needy.
And im emotionally exhausted,
Feel so needy.
HAPPY
15th
BIRTHDAY
to my lovely brother.
15th
BIRTHDAY
to my lovely brother.
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Passing my weekdays very patiently, only hoping for weekend, where that is the only time that I can spend together with dearie..Today is somehow special, his dad n mom are with us all the day..Altho I use to meet them fairly frequent, but Im still feeling extremely shy..
Thing goes as planned, we started off with dim sum as our breakfast..Not much of talking as my heart is jumping hyper actively..Everything moves on slowly and I finally go along well..Out of my expectation, his dad is in need and hence dearie will be away from home..I lose my bravery to stay at his hse without him with me and refuse to hang out long there..However, his mom invited me for lunch and dearie wish that I could stay back to accompany her..Ok then, I took the challenge..Dearie is out for 4 hours and ive a close conservation with mom..During lunch, we sat in a round dining table and his mom shares with me her life experiences..i never know I can reach this far and dearie must be very proud of me^^wink..
I don’t know what kind of impression that ive in their minds, not the very-outstanding wan obviously, but hopefully not too bad as well..Every girl do hope that their boy’s parents will acknowledge and accept them in a good way..Yes, so do i..Im feeling so great that his parents are treating me as part of them, and loving me like how their boy do..I feel so thankful and I believe their support will bring us further..
The funniest part is that his dad asked for my car number plat and he would like to place a bet on it..haha..i guess i must pray for that number to win..
There is a very indescribable feeling in me today, full with pleasure and contentment..
Dearie and me is another way further and we are getting closer to our desires..
Thank you very much uncle and auntie..
LOVES
Thing goes as planned, we started off with dim sum as our breakfast..Not much of talking as my heart is jumping hyper actively..Everything moves on slowly and I finally go along well..Out of my expectation, his dad is in need and hence dearie will be away from home..I lose my bravery to stay at his hse without him with me and refuse to hang out long there..However, his mom invited me for lunch and dearie wish that I could stay back to accompany her..Ok then, I took the challenge..Dearie is out for 4 hours and ive a close conservation with mom..During lunch, we sat in a round dining table and his mom shares with me her life experiences..i never know I can reach this far and dearie must be very proud of me^^wink..
I don’t know what kind of impression that ive in their minds, not the very-outstanding wan obviously, but hopefully not too bad as well..Every girl do hope that their boy’s parents will acknowledge and accept them in a good way..Yes, so do i..Im feeling so great that his parents are treating me as part of them, and loving me like how their boy do..I feel so thankful and I believe their support will bring us further..
The funniest part is that his dad asked for my car number plat and he would like to place a bet on it..haha..i guess i must pray for that number to win..
There is a very indescribable feeling in me today, full with pleasure and contentment..
Dearie and me is another way further and we are getting closer to our desires..
Thank you very much uncle and auntie..
LOVESMonday, November 17, 2008
LOST
and
and
FOUND
Saturday, November 15, 2008
SECONDHAND SERENADE
Fall For You
The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core
But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find
This is not what I intended
I always swore to you i'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may of failed
But I have loved you from the start
Ohhhh
But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible
So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cuz talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When your asleep
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find
When parents are out,
I love the peace,
Adore the silence at home.
Ive completed half of my sem,
Done with assignments and presentations,
Feeling so relieve,
At the same time,
Claiming my life is over dull and tedious.
Days aren’t so well to me,
I don’t dare to touch my final year project,
I lose my motivation to go further,
I lose my energy that I used to have,
I lose someone to share about my life.
I didn’t do,
Things that im suppose to do,
Misuse my time day by day,
With tv and game,
Isn’t it my life so lifeless?
Where is my boy?
I don’t know?
How is he doing recently?
I don’t know?
Are we meeting later?
Yes, perhaps.
Then what time shall we meet?
I don’t know.
So where are we going?
No idea.
5 out of 4 questions,
The answers are so doubtful,
Is this a relationship that we are working out?
What is actually happening?
Obviously im waiting for a date,
But only a date invited by him.
Refused to go on others,
As im reli choosy and picky,
I only want him.
Im waiting very patiently everyday,
Experiencing the feeling of missing him so hard,
That isn’t sweet,
But painful.
Looking at my frens,
Spending so much time with their boy,
I do feel envy.
What was their last movie with their boy?
Quantum of solace 007.
What was my last movie with my boy?
Money no enough 2.
I still manage to fit myself,
Into meals with both couples and I myself,
But absolutely NO for a movie.
I know they don’t want to abandon me,
But im feeling even lonely this way,
Im sorry.
They can meet anytime as they wish;
But we only manage to meet up during weekend.
Either one day,
Mostly during the night,
Maximum 5 hours,
A nice date is with dinner,
A normal date is just a drink.
Shall I compare this way?
How should I think with this?
Am I complaining?
I hope im not.
I know now is far better,
Compared to once 3 months in the past.
I know I should be more understanding,
I must be patient,
I must tolerate,
In order to realize the dream that ive been wishing for so long.
Ive been spending so much,
In order to fulfill myself,
Satisfying all my wants,
Not so needy I think,
But nvm,
Perhaps that’s the only way to make myself better.
Intended to get myself a new watch.
New Nike water bottle. 750ml
These are my face collection,
To cure my sensitive skin first,
Then lighten my dark spot,
And
Be a wonderful and pretty girl.
As usual,
Looking forward for a better day.
I love the peace,
Adore the silence at home.
Ive completed half of my sem,
Done with assignments and presentations,
Feeling so relieve,
At the same time,
Claiming my life is over dull and tedious.
Days aren’t so well to me,
I don’t dare to touch my final year project,
I lose my motivation to go further,
I lose my energy that I used to have,
I lose someone to share about my life.
I didn’t do,
Things that im suppose to do,
Misuse my time day by day,
With tv and game,
Isn’t it my life so lifeless?
Where is my boy?
I don’t know?
How is he doing recently?
I don’t know?
Are we meeting later?
Yes, perhaps.
Then what time shall we meet?
I don’t know.
So where are we going?
No idea.
5 out of 4 questions,
The answers are so doubtful,
Is this a relationship that we are working out?
What is actually happening?
Obviously im waiting for a date,
But only a date invited by him.
Refused to go on others,
As im reli choosy and picky,
I only want him.
Im waiting very patiently everyday,
Experiencing the feeling of missing him so hard,
That isn’t sweet,
But painful.
Looking at my frens,
Spending so much time with their boy,
I do feel envy.
What was their last movie with their boy?
Quantum of solace 007.
What was my last movie with my boy?
Money no enough 2.
I still manage to fit myself,
Into meals with both couples and I myself,
But absolutely NO for a movie.
I know they don’t want to abandon me,
But im feeling even lonely this way,
Im sorry.
They can meet anytime as they wish;
But we only manage to meet up during weekend.
Either one day,
Mostly during the night,
Maximum 5 hours,
A nice date is with dinner,
A normal date is just a drink.
Shall I compare this way?
How should I think with this?
Am I complaining?
I hope im not.
I know now is far better,
Compared to once 3 months in the past.
I know I should be more understanding,
I must be patient,
I must tolerate,
In order to realize the dream that ive been wishing for so long.
Ive been spending so much,
In order to fulfill myself,
Satisfying all my wants,
Not so needy I think,
But nvm,
Perhaps that’s the only way to make myself better.
Intended to get myself a new watch.
New Nike water bottle. 750ml
These are my face collection,To cure my sensitive skin first,
Then lighten my dark spot,
And
Be a wonderful and pretty girl.
As usual,
Looking forward for a better day.
Monday, November 10, 2008
Finally ive some time for myself,
Munching over my favorite butter cookies,
Enjoying a cold juice,
Lingering in my bloggie,
Sharing all my hearts feels,
Sounds so relaxing.
Im escape from a real hectic period,
I wish I could have more time for dearie,
He’s been unwell for so long,
Letting me to live in anxiety and unease.
My day isn’t so thriving I guess,
Im awaked from a night mare,
Dearie breaks his promise and leaving me apart;
Then Im served with super spicy fried rice as lunch,
Mom poured the pepper with the cap fall off.
When I reached uni with my engine off,
“Duno-what-fan” is still running,
A noob driver like me who knows nothing,
Is totally so frightened by it,
And my car is hospitalized for a check up.
Looking forward for better days..
Munching over my favorite butter cookies,
Enjoying a cold juice,
Lingering in my bloggie,
Sharing all my hearts feels,
Sounds so relaxing.
Im escape from a real hectic period,
I wish I could have more time for dearie,
He’s been unwell for so long,
Letting me to live in anxiety and unease.
My day isn’t so thriving I guess,
Im awaked from a night mare,
Dearie breaks his promise and leaving me apart;
Then Im served with super spicy fried rice as lunch,
Mom poured the pepper with the cap fall off.
When I reached uni with my engine off,
“Duno-what-fan” is still running,
A noob driver like me who knows nothing,
Is totally so frightened by it,
And my car is hospitalized for a check up.
Looking forward for better days..
Wednesday, November 05, 2008
One assignment done,
One mid-term down,
One presentation is on tomorrow,
One more assignment due next week,
and
One last presentation to go..
Im a lil upset with the imperfection,
A lil upset wit my lovely Fat face,
Not a lil but alot perhaps,
Terribly dry and itchy,
Turning to Big RED spot now,
Feeling so embarrass to show up in the public,
No hang outs at the moment,
Til my face back to normal..
One mid-term down,
One presentation is on tomorrow,
One more assignment due next week,
and
One last presentation to go..
Im a lil upset with the imperfection,
A lil upset wit my lovely Fat face,
Not a lil but alot perhaps,
Terribly dry and itchy,
Turning to Big RED spot now,
Feeling so embarrass to show up in the public,
No hang outs at the moment,
Til my face back to normal..
Pohyee's wish list of the month.
- Wallet
- Liquid Eye Liner
- Eye Lashes
- Make-up Remover
- Dresses
- Casual tops
- Heels
- Sandals
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..
..
..
..
..
..
The list goes on with never ending,
But cash will limit everything..
Sunday, November 02, 2008
Im completely exhausted;
Assignments are killing me cruelly,
Rushing to uni daily;
Also rushing home daily,
Im late for classes;
Also late for dinner,
Stress for studies;
Also distress with home.
Assignments are driving me crazy,
They aren’t easy at all,
No personal perception is allowed,
Every line must be proven to be true,
I wonder how other ppl doing it.
Home is another tense place,
Ive lose my passion in it,
Bro is suspended from school,
Mom is thoroughly hurt by us.
Mom told me,
We don’t deserve anything from them anymore,
We don’t worth anything for them to spend so much,
Concerns equal to a waste of time.
I used to envy so much with other ppl,
Envy with girl who has a bf,
Envy with girl who is smart,
Envy with girl who is pretty,
Envy with friends who organized a bday party,
Seems like I reli dislike my life,
But actually im much fortunate than many other ppl out there,
I know,
But ppl just never satisfy and start appreciate.
Finally get a copy of cuppy cake's bday pics,
I never knw 21st bday should be celebrated this way,
No key for me this year,
and
Ive wasted of a Big day of mine that is once in my life time.
Assignments are killing me cruelly,
Rushing to uni daily;
Also rushing home daily,
Im late for classes;
Also late for dinner,
Stress for studies;
Also distress with home.
Assignments are driving me crazy,
They aren’t easy at all,
No personal perception is allowed,
Every line must be proven to be true,
I wonder how other ppl doing it.
Home is another tense place,
Ive lose my passion in it,
Bro is suspended from school,
Mom is thoroughly hurt by us.
Mom told me,
We don’t deserve anything from them anymore,
We don’t worth anything for them to spend so much,
Concerns equal to a waste of time.
I used to envy so much with other ppl,
Envy with girl who has a bf,
Envy with girl who is smart,
Envy with girl who is pretty,
Envy with friends who organized a bday party,
Seems like I reli dislike my life,
But actually im much fortunate than many other ppl out there,
I know,
But ppl just never satisfy and start appreciate.
Finally get a copy of cuppy cake's bday pics,
I never knw 21st bday should be celebrated this way,
No key for me this year,
and
Ive wasted of a Big day of mine that is once in my life time.
Happy Happie Birthday
and
Happy Happie Everyday..
and
Happy Happie Everyday..
