Home alone.
Every1 went out n I insisted to linger at home.
Finally I can sense a lil bit of peace. Days have been over stressful for me, n im reli exhausted wit whole lots of stuff.

For the past few days, im doubt wit the reasons that made me so sad n down, my brain n heart seem like hardly can connect well, sitting in front of my desk witout knowing wat to do, *abit helpless..ive not started anything yet for my test n assignmentssss, n I reli wonder wat ive been doin recently..??

Im missing *him so badly, we didn’t chat for almost 2weeks, guess he’s bz as well. wishing so much that im a big kid where I can juz rely on him n he wil take care of me, as i need some1 on my arm.

Life’s beginning to be sad n hectic, myee u r absolutely right.

A very first post for year 2008..its abit late I know, but parents were in a vacation to Bali for the past few days, n so, im taking the role as a *mom for those days..thank God that they are back now, n everything is back to normal, tired sialz taking care of a monkey (bro) n my dumb eldest sis..However, I do learnt something this time round n I guess im gna appreciate mom more than I do..hehe..

New year, new resolutions..so wat wil be mine..??

Studies wil be the first place among all..gona put all my energy in pursuing my degree n graduate in first class honour..as now im in year2, everything is getting tougher n gna stick bak to those stressful study life..*constant study n start doing notes from the very beginning, means now, are our silly plan but it may be effective..

My lovely brother comes to my mind n I reli wish that he can get well n heal his sickness..he somehow has a speedy recovery after undergoing the acupuncture treatment..frequent visit is no longer needed, but juz twice a week..Wee~~

Next, my feeling towards *him is growing n getting stronger, hoping so much that I’ll be with him someday in the near future, not rushing him, but I’ll be with him to hunt his aim, tracking peaceful n stable life..wishing that he’s struggling as well to let me be part of his life..thus im stil single, juz that im not available coz im loving someone at this point of time..

I reli dislike to be a historical girl, owning plenty of ex-s somehow shows that im play play nia..i do experienced different lessons n learn everytime I bleed, I do made a *massive mistake in starting a relationship where I shudnt be, n the feelings of so regretful filled up my heart, coz dats the relationship I contributed the most, n paying the most as well..however, according to him, he said that I didn’t work it out..yea man, I did everything for bullshytt, n he worked everything so freaking well with his attitude..for this, I must admit that im dumb to kinda like rush into a havoc relationship, lack of understanding results an awful relationship..dun *emo, juz accept the fact, this is nt a story telling section, i wan u to know that u lose me for a reason, n the reason is u yourself..hmm, whatever, you dun care rite..okies, im glad aso that its all over now, but there is still one final thing that holds me bak, which is my money..

From now on, I must begin to think out the box n see beyond own struggle, try my best to realize all my dreams n create a better life for myself in year 2008..