Im kinda exhausted, scanning n goin tru all d articles n materials, im on my way in getting my part of recruitment n resourcing assignment to be done..
Many things can reli happen in a day, mayb within a minute or even a second..
even tho a word, it may destroy everything..im posting this to u, if u r reading,u shud know im refering to u..
Im nt trying to mengheboh-hebohkan or buat hal here, i juz wan to clarify things dat u might stil blur or mayb uncertain wit..coz u r provoking me n making me truly emo..first of all, u shud clearly knw dat we r goin on juz as fren, told u b4, not beyond that..but u claimed that im nt treating u as fren as i din msg u until u msg me..hey dude, there r hundred names in my contact, so do i nid to msg each of everyone everyday to prove or show dat our frenship do reli exist.?
Las nite, i didnt reply 2 of ur msgs, n u sent me another 1 by asking me whether im trying to be "COCKY"..dats reli rude whereby i cant accept this adjective, so i ignore ur msgs n calls after that..when i din reply ur msg, it shud giv u an idea that im bz, ive told u b4..but u juz hardly can accept it n started wit ur bad perception n thinking where im avoiding n ignoring u..wat do u expect from me actually..?? u r asking me wat am i doin everyday..u wan me to explain every single thing y n y im doin this n that..?? u wan me to tell u i was actually rushin for ass in d nex room n my phone was charging in d other room.? im no longer obligated to tell everything, dats too much u knw..im so tired to explain y i nid my fon bak, y im nt free, wer i went, wat im doin there n all..
We hardly can communicate well, hardly click to each other, ur words reli hurt me everytime..dats y as time goes by, i dun reli care anymore, watever, as i alwiz say..i alwiz hav d intention to be ur fren after we broke up, but u r pushing me away from days to days, n as u seen d pohyee today is mean to u..u r the one who brought me to tis step whereby we somehow r stranger o enemy nw..
U sent me plenty of msgs, n i reli hate that u blame me for nvr try out anything to save or to make our relationship better..y u r nt d one who takes initiative to change n wat hav u contributed to our relationship..?? ive told u b4, when i was wit u, im more like ur bf rather than gf..i paid for ur food when u r freaking broke, basically 80% of d time when we were 2gther..i lent u a sum of money to cleared al ur summons n bills, i borrowed u my old fon, i bought f&b, n even d thost'em bread u love most where i nvr treat myself b4..i made a smiley card, n a love diary btw us..im doin al this for bullshit izit..?? when u r nt in a good mood for no reason, u can juz come n meet me witout a word,not even a hie o bye..haha, then u expect me to talk nicely n persuade u to change,im d one who supposed to emo n u r the one who shud tell me dat u r willing 2change n u'll change..u shud knw d major prob that contributed to our ending today is ur financial position cant even sustain yourself for ur daily life, u cant even afford for urself..n i think u r nt ready at all for a girl in ur life.i guess u shud knw al these very well..u alwiz afraid n think dat others hav d advantage of being chinese, race isnt a matter, but u urself are d prob, ur attitude..!!
i dun reli wana go further for this topic anymore..n i dun reli knw that whether i can still treat u as fren..mayb we shud stop approaching each other for a period of time..dats all i can say..
Awaiting days of the boy and girl;