Running out of energy today, coz my mind was truly awake n im alert the whole nite, im not emo, not upset, my brain is not working, but im afraid..oh well, since my bro is ill, he is now sleeping beside me..im extremely sensitive and easily awake once the bed is moving or shaking..im worry that my lovely bro will be attacked by epilepsy in the middle of the nite..n thus, i nid to make a frequent turn to check on him, n even sometimes mayb im too weary to turn n I juz sleep facing him all the nite n I got aches on my neck the nex morning..
Juz las Sunday morning, i heard some noise n I was awaked by him..omg, again..!! immediately ran to my parents..mom n dad put the blame on me, coz I didn’t stop him from playing comp las nite n the nex morning, he’s attacked..i somehow felt guilty, I din reli bother him coz I was doin my assignment til 4am..I cant hold my tears at that moment coz he was stable in the past 3weeks..my bro now is under traditional medication which is acupuncture..dad used up rm3K for juz a month to cure bro’s sickness as d master is somehow famous..he nids to undergo this treatment everyday, 14-16 needles poke on his entire body, whereby some are connected to the machine..i knw he’s suffering from tis, but wat to do..
The master do actually told us dat bro is getting better, so we didn’t expect anything to come again..unfortunately it happens to him another time..d master said playing comp game wil cause death brains, so to better avoid such incident to happen again, he is nw oni allowed to hang in front of the comp for 15mins..pity him lah, mapling has been his great interest of all..
n thus, mom suggested to buy him a play station..*stim*..good aso!! But all of us need to contribute a lil, mayb few hundreds.*pretty broke..for the sake of him, nvm lah..as myee alwiz says, im a *shareholder now~~n yet, his bday fall on tis month, so we juz fulfill him lor..cant ignore that we love him lotsssSSSSsssss..!!!
when I was on the way bak today, im having a feeling dat they are so many Indians on the road, town n malls..opss its deepa deepa deepavali~~*stim..a festive season again n holiday..happy deepavali to everyone, especially my bee bee..enjoy to the max yea~~
n las paragraph for lixin coz she’s upset today..here it goes :
the love u both had went through isn’t easy,u feel like giving up when u own him now,but u’ll feel like getting him bak once u lose him,sometimes we will oni appreciate things when we lose it,so dun regret if u stil hav it now..no matter hows the ending gona be, we’ll alwiz support u..
AI NI oh~~
