3 weeks break has finally comes to an end, its time to tune back into study mode as im entering year 3 now, tough phase gna takes place where thesis, assignments, presentations, n mid terms gna fill up my schedule when new sem reopens..
I would say tis break has been the most wonderful among all for me, where I do reli enjoyed to the max..this fun filled time are leaving me a great remembrance for the rest of my life..thx to my dearie for spending whole loads of time wit me during tis holi especially the trip..he walks into my life n lighten up my days..however, he’s claiming that he is yet the best for me, apologizing trillion times for failing to bring me a step forward..im quite upset that I failed to convince him wit my words n distress that I cant make him feel better..i failed to answer him when he asked me to what extent a good guy can be, how good is him now, n where else he can improve himself..there are thousand of emotions filling my hearts yet there are hardly describe by words, perhaps a smile represents everything..its somehow complicated for the journey we hav went tru along the way, oni both of us knw well..Ive made up my mind to give him all my time, coz I reli find myself walking in a circle along tis, turning bak to the starting point witout an ending, n now im hoping that my ending will be me n him..im jz gna go with the flow cz I realize that there is ntg muc to worry about, if he’s mine, he’ll mine..Dear, allow me to stay beside u coz having u wit me is my greatest pleasure n plz accept my companionship as im having strong feelings toward you..
Ive made him some konyaku jelly n a smiley card to erase his gloomy feelings n we met up last nite for a drink..he amazed me by treating me an ice cream which he’s strongly prohibiting me to consume along tis due to my heavy discharge..i wonder what brought him to this step, but I juz appreciate that..thanks a lot dear..
There is a poem attached in the card which i reli adore so so much, its so meaningful where i wish one day we can find our true love from each other's company.
Walk with me, the path of life,
to explore every bend of the road;
Enjoy with me the beauty of life,
along its wonderful way.
Find comfort with me, in each other's arms,
when grief crosses our path;
Find strength with me, in each other's strength,
when despair lies in wait.
Laugh with me, a single true laugh,
to enlighten another's distress;
Cry with me, a single true tear,
to understand true happiness.
Cherish with me, the wonders of life,
as they need to be preserved;
Rejoice with me, in the mysteries,
of what is yet to be.
Find peace with me, in each other's souls,
when the world has gone insane;
Find love with me, in each other's hearts,
until this life has been fulfilled.
And when he path comes to an end,
i hope we can say from within;
We've known the beauty of true love,
our love came from within.
Supposingly,today, im stil enjoying the final day of my break, but mom ruined everything..bro has put us (siblings) n mom into a great war--perang dingin..she ignored to talk to any1 of us n she’s showing her emo face the whole day..the story goes like tis..i came bak at 2 plus last nite n dearie came in a while n we had a short conversation, then sis came bak around 3am wit a “vroom vroom” car which awaked mom in the middle of the nite..she came out n surprisingly saw my bro is stil in front of the comp chatting wit his gf..aih..he cant stay up late n the radiation from the comp gna affects his brains in some ways and then epilepsy wil attack him again..bro is stil very unclear wit the consequences of his illness n im so freaking exhausted in taking care of him..wat happens today is mom took out one of the cable which connects the CPU to the monitor..i would say that there are many ways in controlling bro from using the comp but she has made the silly-est decisions to act tis way coz any1 of us including daddy are not able to use to comp..wth is tis, how can one stands a day witout a comp n my new sem gna starts by 2mr..well, im uploading al tis wit sis's laptop..
My hse is extremely dull today, like a dead scene..not a word during our lunch n dinner in a circle, situation is terribly formal n strict like every1 is having tis perception where no talking is allowed during meals..flies dun even wna join us..mom is in a tremendous anger I knw n tis time Ive no idea at all to solve tis dispute..im thankful that im goin bak to uni n I dun nid to stay at home anymore as tis is killing me softly..tis coming sat wil be her 51st bday, im so totally not in the mood of making her a bday card til she initiates a conversation wit me..lets wait..
The day b4 yesterday was a siblings day, 3 of us went out for shopping as bro is looking for a sling bag..we had sushi king as our dinner..gosh, im a sushi lover..mom gave us 50 bucks for dinner when me n bro wayang in front of her telling her we are so desperate over sushi yet we couldnt afford it..well, thats all b4 the war..
the end for a long long post.byes.
