..:: The Journey of Pohyee's Life ::..

Saturday, June 14, 2008

There are numerous emotion filling my heart, countless of things are happening, and mostly aren’t pleased..Lately, im so fed up with myself that I get into tears so easily, everytime once I get home n sit down in front of my desk, I started to shed tears..i dislike my home now, if I have sumwer to hang out, I wouldn’t choose to linger at home..

My brother and i, used to play so muc las time, had fun bullying each other, pillow talk b4 we slumber, we had our mask together, we eat together n do everything together..i used to ask my mom where is bro everytime when i get home..

Bro isnt like a normal ppl, he's unwell, he nids extra care, he undergoes kinds of treatments, dealing with machines since last year..n thus he deserves extra love from me..but he didnt know how to take care of himself, while everyone is so concern over him, investing large amount of cash to heal him, in the other way round, he's destroying himself, without any heart of appreciative over his life, without feeling thankful to anyone..he choose to leave every of my kindness and compassion out of his mind especially those days when he was hospitalized..today, he breaks my heart so deeply..

this is the pic he edited for me, with all his hearts and loves..

Im getting myself so hurtful and upset for a person who doesnt appreciate my anxiety n concern at all..for so many posts b4 this, I used to say how much i love my bro, but NOW, that will never come out from my lips or hearts anymore..

He shifted himself away from me, changing from a truly loving character to a hatred feelings toward me now perhaps..ive been sleeping beside him since he was in standard 1, for 8years, n now for a lil dispute, he moves to the nex room..he ignores me, n not even a word btw us now, we are so completely lik a stranger..i reli hav no idea how to resolve this dispute, however, im not in the wrong position..im juz heartbreaking for his immature thinking n ways of doing..Frens, plz don’t ask me anything about my bro, i no longer want to draw a topic on him..

I don’t know how long this dispute gna carry on, but my patient is running thin, feeling so lifeless, staying at home with some1 who u love so much that hates u..perhaps I shall juz get myself involve in more eventful days.. n maybe I shall move to dearie’s house, he suggested..yipee..^^wink

Well, no matter how miserable is your life, still, u have to carry on strongly..

i went to alamanda putrajaya that day alone, coz home is no longer my place rite after my class..shopping alone can be fun as well..

after all sad stories, i would like to dedicate a song to everyone here..
the time of my life by David Cook..
enjoy my mini music box,
and
lets sing together~~