Saturday, November 15, 2008
When parents are out,
I love the peace,
Adore the silence at home.
Ive completed half of my sem,
Done with assignments and presentations,
Feeling so relieve,
At the same time,
Claiming my life is over dull and tedious.
Days aren’t so well to me,
I don’t dare to touch my final year project,
I lose my motivation to go further,
I lose my energy that I used to have,
I lose someone to share about my life.
I didn’t do,
Things that im suppose to do,
Misuse my time day by day,
With tv and game,
Isn’t it my life so lifeless?
Where is my boy?
I don’t know?
How is he doing recently?
I don’t know?
Are we meeting later?
Yes, perhaps.
Then what time shall we meet?
I don’t know.
So where are we going?
No idea.
5 out of 4 questions,
The answers are so doubtful,
Is this a relationship that we are working out?
What is actually happening?
Obviously im waiting for a date,
But only a date invited by him.
Refused to go on others,
As im reli choosy and picky,
I only want him.
Im waiting very patiently everyday,
Experiencing the feeling of missing him so hard,
That isn’t sweet,
But painful.
Looking at my frens,
Spending so much time with their boy,
I do feel envy.
What was their last movie with their boy?
Quantum of solace 007.
What was my last movie with my boy?
Money no enough 2.
I still manage to fit myself,
Into meals with both couples and I myself,
But absolutely NO for a movie.
I know they don’t want to abandon me,
But im feeling even lonely this way,
Im sorry.
They can meet anytime as they wish;
But we only manage to meet up during weekend.
Either one day,
Mostly during the night,
Maximum 5 hours,
A nice date is with dinner,
A normal date is just a drink.
Shall I compare this way?
How should I think with this?
Am I complaining?
I hope im not.
I know now is far better,
Compared to once 3 months in the past.
I know I should be more understanding,
I must be patient,
I must tolerate,
In order to realize the dream that ive been wishing for so long.
Ive been spending so much,
In order to fulfill myself,
Satisfying all my wants,
Not so needy I think,
But nvm,
Perhaps that’s the only way to make myself better.
Intended to get myself a new watch.
New Nike water bottle. 750ml
These are my face collection,
To cure my sensitive skin first,
Then lighten my dark spot,
And
Be a wonderful and pretty girl.
As usual,
Looking forward for a better day.
I love the peace,
Adore the silence at home.
Ive completed half of my sem,
Done with assignments and presentations,
Feeling so relieve,
At the same time,
Claiming my life is over dull and tedious.
Days aren’t so well to me,
I don’t dare to touch my final year project,
I lose my motivation to go further,
I lose my energy that I used to have,
I lose someone to share about my life.
I didn’t do,
Things that im suppose to do,
Misuse my time day by day,
With tv and game,
Isn’t it my life so lifeless?
Where is my boy?
I don’t know?
How is he doing recently?
I don’t know?
Are we meeting later?
Yes, perhaps.
Then what time shall we meet?
I don’t know.
So where are we going?
No idea.
5 out of 4 questions,
The answers are so doubtful,
Is this a relationship that we are working out?
What is actually happening?
Obviously im waiting for a date,
But only a date invited by him.
Refused to go on others,
As im reli choosy and picky,
I only want him.
Im waiting very patiently everyday,
Experiencing the feeling of missing him so hard,
That isn’t sweet,
But painful.
Looking at my frens,
Spending so much time with their boy,
I do feel envy.
What was their last movie with their boy?
Quantum of solace 007.
What was my last movie with my boy?
Money no enough 2.
I still manage to fit myself,
Into meals with both couples and I myself,
But absolutely NO for a movie.
I know they don’t want to abandon me,
But im feeling even lonely this way,
Im sorry.
They can meet anytime as they wish;
But we only manage to meet up during weekend.
Either one day,
Mostly during the night,
Maximum 5 hours,
A nice date is with dinner,
A normal date is just a drink.
Shall I compare this way?
How should I think with this?
Am I complaining?
I hope im not.
I know now is far better,
Compared to once 3 months in the past.
I know I should be more understanding,
I must be patient,
I must tolerate,
In order to realize the dream that ive been wishing for so long.
Ive been spending so much,
In order to fulfill myself,
Satisfying all my wants,
Not so needy I think,
But nvm,
Perhaps that’s the only way to make myself better.
Intended to get myself a new watch.
New Nike water bottle. 750ml
These are my face collection,To cure my sensitive skin first,
Then lighten my dark spot,
And
Be a wonderful and pretty girl.
As usual,
Looking forward for a better day.
