Thursday, December 25, 2008
Xmas is finally here, there are tons of feelings residing in me..
This day isn’t as simple as just a xmas, it isn’t that i heart the snow or santa or anything about xmas, but it represents the beginning of everything wonderful btw me n my boy..Its a lovely day of remembrance..
On the xmas eve last year, he asked for a date, but I guess he struggled for quite some time b4 he make up his mind coz he actually dun hav a car for the date..It’s particularly a strange thing as he’s very quiet and so introvert to express his heart feels..I used to be so afraid to send him a msg, I hardly hit the send key everytime after writing a long msg..I feel so embarrass to be so aggressive over him as he rarely reply me..As a guy, he doesnt show any hint of liking me at all and im down to the ground when he acted pretty offhand about me..
After breaking up with my ex-s, I used to have the feelings back to him over n over again, but I feel bad to do so, hence I somehow hold myself back..maybe that shows that im not serious in treating a relationship, going on-and-off, but actually all the disappointment drives me to wrongful decisions..Im tremendously regret now coz ive wasted so much of my life witout him, if I wasn’t so desperate for love, I would have be with dearie few years back..I should have realize earlier that dearie is the one I love after all and this time IM TRULY SERIOUS..Im thankful that im able to get him now..
Oh well, since the date on xmas eve, changes take place as time goes by..There are more conversations btw us, more sharing, more caring, more dates, more movies, more dinners; we’re getting closer, we enjoy the company of each other, we appreciate, we get to understand each other more, we started to meet each parents, there is higher commitment, higher engagement and we’re lovely attached since then..Along our journey, its been a year now, its our unofficial anniversary that we manage to reach, im completely joyful with it and definitely will be waiting for our day..
This year, dearie isn’t with me, he’s away for work purpose, but nvm, coz he’s deeply kept in my heart..
Some random pictures below..
Hair cut on Monday
A xmas presie.
Xmas celebration with parents: cakes from secret recipe from daddy.
Merry Christmas everyone.
On the xmas eve last year, he asked for a date, but I guess he struggled for quite some time b4 he make up his mind coz he actually dun hav a car for the date..It’s particularly a strange thing as he’s very quiet and so introvert to express his heart feels..I used to be so afraid to send him a msg, I hardly hit the send key everytime after writing a long msg..I feel so embarrass to be so aggressive over him as he rarely reply me..As a guy, he doesnt show any hint of liking me at all and im down to the ground when he acted pretty offhand about me..
After breaking up with my ex-s, I used to have the feelings back to him over n over again, but I feel bad to do so, hence I somehow hold myself back..maybe that shows that im not serious in treating a relationship, going on-and-off, but actually all the disappointment drives me to wrongful decisions..Im tremendously regret now coz ive wasted so much of my life witout him, if I wasn’t so desperate for love, I would have be with dearie few years back..I should have realize earlier that dearie is the one I love after all and this time IM TRULY SERIOUS..Im thankful that im able to get him now..
Oh well, since the date on xmas eve, changes take place as time goes by..There are more conversations btw us, more sharing, more caring, more dates, more movies, more dinners; we’re getting closer, we enjoy the company of each other, we appreciate, we get to understand each other more, we started to meet each parents, there is higher commitment, higher engagement and we’re lovely attached since then..Along our journey, its been a year now, its our unofficial anniversary that we manage to reach, im completely joyful with it and definitely will be waiting for our day..
This year, dearie isn’t with me, he’s away for work purpose, but nvm, coz he’s deeply kept in my heart..
Some random pictures below..
Hair cut on Monday
A xmas presie.
Xmas celebration with parents: cakes from secret recipe from daddy.
Merry Christmas everyone.
