Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Another disaster just ended in my life. I didn’t turn on my lappie since one of my assignments was submitted last Friday. I was glued with my chair and my eyes staring at my laptop practically motionless last week, trying to complete whatever shit it should be done.
After then, I wouldn’t want to attach myself with lappie anymore, hence I left my studies, my bloggie and mail box for days days days. Ive two more ASS-ignments to go but the due date isn’t near enough for us to initiate it, that’s the most hatred attitude in all of us.
Ive been enjoying my weekend so well this time since beginning of the sem. Time were properly spent for dearie, mom, friends, and myself.
Back to uni on Tuesday, hectic mood is activated. I drank a hot beverage with 5 teaspoons of milo to satisfy my hunger last night before my bed. Too badly, I was excessively supplied with energy provided by the energy drink (Milo) which overkills my sleep and I had another sleepless night. The poor me has to get up at 630am for 8am class. For this reason, I was so eager for a nap this noon right after my class at 2pm, but things aren’t take place as planned.
Taking a nap always give my mom a perception that im overly free. I definitely know how weary is a mom to handle everything at home all alone, she certainly needs someone to help her and unquestionably as a daughter, im totally responsible to assist her. Brother is another demanding fellow, where I need to fulfill him no matter how exhausted am I coz he’s ill. Im putting every1 in my shoe, trying to fulfill everyone, but who is ever to understand and tolerate me, sometimes I just wish to have more time for me myself.
Rainy day is turning me down. Im entirely in great dilemma. Today, everyone in class is happily discussing about the class tour, some are going karaoke after class, some are going zoo tomorrow. So frankly, im a passive mate in turning up most of the happenings that my class organized, but somehow im very interested in class tour as we are all graduating soon, it’s a final experience of drawing everyone together, putting our 3-years-classmate-friendship-in-uni to a close end. End of uni but beginning of society relationship.
However, I was in massive shock when I was informed that the tour is arranged on 2nd, 3rd and 4th of April and unfortunately 2nd is my boy’s birthday. I never thought of rejecting the tour at all, but its truly hurtful to leave my boy alone on his birthday without me. So who shall I fulfill this time, my boy or my 3-years-classmates? Every lover is expecting to spend precious time with their loves one of course.
Although we are planning for a joint-birthday-celebration prior his big day, but I still feel very reluctant to leave him on the actual day of his birthday. Some says birthday is an annual event, u get to celebrate it every year, but this graduation class tour is only once in your uni life. Of course, privileges always go to my dearie. I do feel sorry to say that 365 a year isn’t a quick period for me tho. Its always very easy and simple-minded for u ppl to make such a choice, but have u take into consideration the emotions and feelings a person might suffer or encounter? If this case happens to my boy, I definitely wont stop him from joining the tour, yet I will still feel upset and disappointed in a way if he couldn’t be with me on my birthday. A sour experience will undeniably leave a deep mark in our memory.
How can I hurt him on such significant day. Most of the time, he never fail to meet every of my needs, he always try his best to give me all he can, I appreciate his faithfulness in delivering his love and care to me and his seriousness in bringing happiness to my life. Not to forget his parents who are so welcoming and friendly to me, preparing meals for me and my parents, im so thankful for all, really.
I need more time to consider very intensely.
After then, I wouldn’t want to attach myself with lappie anymore, hence I left my studies, my bloggie and mail box for days days days. Ive two more ASS-ignments to go but the due date isn’t near enough for us to initiate it, that’s the most hatred attitude in all of us.
Ive been enjoying my weekend so well this time since beginning of the sem. Time were properly spent for dearie, mom, friends, and myself.
Back to uni on Tuesday, hectic mood is activated. I drank a hot beverage with 5 teaspoons of milo to satisfy my hunger last night before my bed. Too badly, I was excessively supplied with energy provided by the energy drink (Milo) which overkills my sleep and I had another sleepless night. The poor me has to get up at 630am for 8am class. For this reason, I was so eager for a nap this noon right after my class at 2pm, but things aren’t take place as planned.
Taking a nap always give my mom a perception that im overly free. I definitely know how weary is a mom to handle everything at home all alone, she certainly needs someone to help her and unquestionably as a daughter, im totally responsible to assist her. Brother is another demanding fellow, where I need to fulfill him no matter how exhausted am I coz he’s ill. Im putting every1 in my shoe, trying to fulfill everyone, but who is ever to understand and tolerate me, sometimes I just wish to have more time for me myself.
Rainy day is turning me down. Im entirely in great dilemma. Today, everyone in class is happily discussing about the class tour, some are going karaoke after class, some are going zoo tomorrow. So frankly, im a passive mate in turning up most of the happenings that my class organized, but somehow im very interested in class tour as we are all graduating soon, it’s a final experience of drawing everyone together, putting our 3-years-classmate-friendship-in-uni to a close end. End of uni but beginning of society relationship.
However, I was in massive shock when I was informed that the tour is arranged on 2nd, 3rd and 4th of April and unfortunately 2nd is my boy’s birthday. I never thought of rejecting the tour at all, but its truly hurtful to leave my boy alone on his birthday without me. So who shall I fulfill this time, my boy or my 3-years-classmates? Every lover is expecting to spend precious time with their loves one of course.
Although we are planning for a joint-birthday-celebration prior his big day, but I still feel very reluctant to leave him on the actual day of his birthday. Some says birthday is an annual event, u get to celebrate it every year, but this graduation class tour is only once in your uni life. Of course, privileges always go to my dearie. I do feel sorry to say that 365 a year isn’t a quick period for me tho. Its always very easy and simple-minded for u ppl to make such a choice, but have u take into consideration the emotions and feelings a person might suffer or encounter? If this case happens to my boy, I definitely wont stop him from joining the tour, yet I will still feel upset and disappointed in a way if he couldn’t be with me on my birthday. A sour experience will undeniably leave a deep mark in our memory.
How can I hurt him on such significant day. Most of the time, he never fail to meet every of my needs, he always try his best to give me all he can, I appreciate his faithfulness in delivering his love and care to me and his seriousness in bringing happiness to my life. Not to forget his parents who are so welcoming and friendly to me, preparing meals for me and my parents, im so thankful for all, really.
I need more time to consider very intensely.
My sweet boyand
I love him very much.
